Teared today when I went to visit my grandma from the paternal side. Considering how we both can never communicate each other the proper way because she speaks Hainanese and I don’t understand NOR speak. Moreover, she was mean tooooo ): In many wayssss, ahhh. Long story yo. Anyway, I definitely did not feel that compassionate enough to feel sorry or whatsoever for my granny but well, to my surprise I did this time round.
If you don’t know, she’s currently at a nursing home after many operations due to a fall she had at home, maybe weeks ago? Some metal inserted inside her leg because of a fractured bone? And seemingly she is like a deep deep valley; the more doctors do check-ups on her, the more sicknesses are found. Currently, she has blood in her urine. Omy. The thing that made my heart broke was the moment her eyes turned to me, she started to sob. Yes, literally sob quite loud. (I was like, OMY – are the patients around thinking I bullied my ah-por or sth la!!!) Yahh, then I got to know that it was probably because she was never in hospital since young. Always the healthy one, never expected to be in her current state now. And she dreads the sight of blood, whenever she sees, she would think she might die. SIGH.
Seriously, I don’t know what to do. Looking at the helpless her, suffering so much :/ That urge to want to bring her to Christ yet I don’t know how, considering the communication barrier between her to me or even to many?
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It does makes me think of how I really want to live my life more meaningfully before I get sick and old till I become some old porpor.
I AM GOING TO….
- GO OVERSEAS BUNGEE JUMP FROM SOME HIGH MOUNTAINS (ok, but the height seriously freaks me out-.-)
- go overseas with celly and 5some! 
*** to be completed!
